Kali Sadhana

Kali, the beauty of the formless, has a fierce beauty that transcends time and concept. She is dark blue/ black, and wears a garland of skulls, a skirt of human arms. Her tongue hangs out of her laughing mouth, the vibration of her howl shakes the universe. Kali is the energy of time and space. In the eternal flow of the universe, she leads us to surrender our concept of time as a marker of our existence. She gives the understanding of time as the constant flow of creation, sustenance and destruction; holding birth, death and all states in between and beyond. She is the space that creates and destroys, the space that holds our illusions and destroys them.

In the space of Kali, we touch the wholeness of existence in nondual awareness. Here, we see the actions that cause us to be held in the perpetual cycle of duality, where we repeat karmic patterns that obstruct the flow of Shakti. This dualistic perception prevents us from living life as a flow of experiences, keeps us stuck in our repetitive attempts to avoid pain and anything perceived as loss or failure. By liberating karmas that keep us trapped in this cycle, we are able to feel that we can be in pain and not struggle to regain what we think we have lost, or compensate for it. We can be in pure sensation as it is, without making it into what we want it to be or don't want it to be. We can touch the value of who we are at our essential level of being without needing to defend that being or be reassured of its worth. Creativity, desirability, contentment, joy are all freed in the space of Kali as we drop identities and perceptions that are tied to actions in duality. The seat of Kali is in the heart center, here she holds the space for us to feel the pain of our experiences of loss and fragmentation, as well as the joy of our experiences of love and wholeness. She brings us to the awareness that all of this is to be fully experienced as the natural flow of life.

Rasa, the blood or perfume of Kali, transmits Shakti as the unobstructed flow in which pure emotion and sensation are experienced as complete and raw, unfiltered by our perceptions. In this primordial sensory experience, nondual awareness exists. As Kali's howls cut across the night sky, so does her energy cut through the blindness to which we cling, allowing us to see the ways in which our actions keep us separate and fragmented. Thus, she carries us to the understanding of the dissolution of duality. The blockages in us that obstructed the flow of life, the Shakti, are dissolved by immersing in the fierceness of her energy and being held in her space. Her fierceness is necessary to face our illusions, her holding necessary to step through them. In the void of Kali, we experience life as the flow that is present when our perceptions of duality end.